Any Day Now!!

December 10th and still pregnant!! I was going crazy the past few days, feeling like it was never going to happen, every day feeling like an eternity. I think though that now that I'm officially past my due date, I'm okay knowing that it has to happen sometime soon. And today I went to the doctor and got some encouraging news. Apparently I am currently 4 centimeters dilated, which is awesome because I haven't felt any of it! The past few days I have been growing increasingly uncomfortable and take it just as a sign that my body is actually progressing toward the labor and delivery stage. I went for a stress test today to make sure the baby is still doing well in there and everything looks excellent. We even got to see an ultrasound and got a glimpse of his face, which doesn't look like an alien anymore but actually like a little baby, with chubby cheeks and everything!! I can't wait to see the non-black-and-white/fuzzy-lines version! Joe and I looked at some of the babies in the nursery today while we were at the hospital. It was funny because he was commenting on how tiny they looked and I was marveling at how huge they seemed! Knowing you're carrying one inside you and it somehow has to come out has a funny way of affecting your perspective :)

I'm starting to really put it out of my mind and enjoy the time that Joe and I have together. We've been going out and keeping busy which has been a wonderful distraction but also really fun for us. I'd kinda forgotten just how much fun we have hanging out together. It's great to be with my best bud again :) God is so good, and I'm so grateful for this time, and for the anticipation of a healthy son that we will soon hold in our arms. Thank you everyone who has been encouraging us and praying for us. I feel the prayers already and am counting on them to sustain me during labor and delivery. Can't wait to update you on how it all goes!!

The Waiting Game

Ok, I just want to give a quick update since my last one was so emotional...
The doctor had said it should be sometime this week, which it is, but still with no baby. I'm growing a little bit anxious, but not too much because my wonderful hubby is here now and we get to enjoy this time together, just the two of us, which won't happen again until we're empty nesters...scary.

Yesterday the doctor said the baby is ready and it should be any day now, so everyone's waiting to see who is going to win the family bet on what day J.T. will come and how much he will weigh. I already lost, I said it would be yesterday :(

As far as my feelings about childbirth, God has really been repairing my heart this past week. It has involved some more challenging questions I've had to face about who I'm really putting my trust in, and how much I am really willing to let God be in control regardless of how that translates into circumstances. As of right now, I am ready. I am ready for that first contraction and ready to experience Jesus holding me through it. I'm going to take it one labor pain at a time since my human brain can get overwhelmed quite easily, but all the while remembering that I CAN do ALL things through Christ who strengthens me. I have verses and worship songs all packed up in my bag to use during labor, and whether it ends up being 2 hours or 20 hours, drug-free or all drugged up, I'm excited for the experience because it will be God's unique experience for me, and we get to go through it together. So I'm much more at peace now and so ready to welcome this new life into the world. Thank you, Lord!

I better get going and help Joe, who is cleaning out the pantry. Apparently my so-called "nesting" instinct was quite a joke compared to his...